I am drawn to writing about the inspiring entities of Life, the world and myself, not only through my own creativity, but through interpretations of others' energy and passions.
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Monday, 11 November 2013
Photosynthesis
(sun, water, air - will cultivate any monstrosity from above)
The Sun shined - the Air stirred - the Rain poured.
You smiled, I smiled, we blossomed: Love.
But the winds of Time blew your petals -
Away from me.
Your coarse hands planted a seed in my soul -
It bobbed, red and swelling in the endless streams of my blood
Reflecting the ethereal memories of your Light,
Like a bulging eye directly through my skin.
Anchored stiffly, deeply in my chest,
It grew sideways - lodged like a stone in my heart.
Watered by the greyest tears from my darkest eyes
It split its skin when limbs appeared
Jolting my Heartstrings -
Jabbing my inner wires -
As it curled round the coils of my brain.
There, that demon took full form -
With prickling petals,
And blades for thorns,
Which cut my choking lungs
- There my funeral had blossomed -
Shrouded by flowers of death.
My psyche had been usurped
And my soul, corrupted -
Dictating me to believe
That you were mine.
That you loved me.
That this cancer deep in my heart was
Love.
When your soul brushed passed mine
Just the other day
As the Sun was setting -
Suddenly the light turned black;
My raw heart bled;
My weak skull split;
My keen eyes failed;
And my soul lay twisted in the ground
As your roots crawled out -
And the Sun was slowing down
When my broken eyes found you then
I had died inside -
Only to discover that (from the time that the Sun had risen)
I was already dead -
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Wednesday, 6 November 2013
I loved you today
I loved you today -
unlike yesterday
when your senselessness
clawed at my heart.
I loved you today -
not like the other days
for you showed me that you
cared.
I loved you today -
because although I could not see
you, I felt your heart
beat in time with mine.
I loved you today -
and I will until
the rays of tomorrow
pierce this fragile light
as weightless as the winds of time-
and again, my heart, stifled,
is choked,
chained
by your Love
Tonight.
Copyright © JRFB 2013
Copyright © JRFB 2013
Sunday, 28 July 2013
Miss Scorpio
She
loves and loves but is not loved. For she is barren of the fertile fields to
grow a child. All she wanted was to be allowed to love. But we always strive to
do what is forbidden. And here it is: the rotten fruit of impoverished love.
The sky was black as charcoal pits, dusted with
speckled stars
Ashen grey surrounds the land
Smothered with burning flowers.
The time when clouds shrivel away
When the Sun makes her bed
At the end of the day –
The Moon himself appears with Hope,
Of meeting his Love
Who sets the distant pole -
Where their love can never be found
For distance - darkness forbid it
And they are not Fated to be bound.
The time when Light-time creatures stop;
And Night-time villains stir
And children drift, still in their beds, like
sweet little corpses.
Now a twisted dark shadow creeps from her hollow
home,
Uncurling her limbs, unfolding her bones,
Like spindly branches against the yellow Moon’s
glow.
She gasps a worn breath –
For she is alone.
Miss Scorpio is always alone – even past death –
From the moment she burst forth from the fiery
pits below
Forming a woman in thin, black dress with lace
like a spider’s webs,
She was alone.
But oh, how she despises having nobody to care
Nobody to hold, nobody to tend to,
Leaving her an empty phantom, wretched, torn,
bare.
Every day is hell, every second, misery;
Yet it is all made lighter by the Moon
Who shines over her fears and wishes, eagerly.
He is her ambient Hope.
The Light deep beneath her blackened spirit.
That can never escape the prison where she
chokes.
The Moon too is lost in despair,
But shines brightly each dark night
In false Hope and care.
Miss Scorpio plucks a star from the glistening
skies
Where stars shine like jewels, mockingly with
their togetherness.
She smothers its brightness; in her frail arms
it lies;
Momentarily, the brimstone in her core
rekindles,
There is a quiescent crispness in the air
As she smiles, skips, glows like a candle
Not caring for her life that burns away
With each hour that passes,
For she has found something to love! Just for
one day -
Until that star quickly fades, from white to
orange, to dull brown
Then to black, like the two charred, bottomless
holes in her sockets.
The heat cools, her trembling arms release the
star, her face twists into a frown
Hot tears streak down her dirt-speckled cheek
Scarring her dark and beautiful features
With deep channels, now trickling red down to
her feet.
Says she: ‘This pain is slight,
‘Compared with the jolt that forever thumps my
core’.
Now, the black ball of dimpled rock takes flight
Down from her body, frozen, scored, wild
Leaving her numb Soul barren, untouched,
Having held that dimming star, cradled like a
child.
But Hope is the fuel for any fire.
Miss Scorpio – Nature's Widow –
Never did her efforts to love expire:
Miss Scorpio once walked in the Midnight Meadow
Stopped, picked a flower from the dark fields of
green,
Shaking it with joy, as the wind sped her on
with each blow
And she ran through the grove
With this new Heart’s desire towards the rays of
tomorrow.
For it is so beautiful to have something to love
–
But soon, the nodding flower’s petals
Dropped out one by one, escaping her desperate
clutches in the cold breeze
Leaving a grey stalk, bent like soft metal
Flying this way and that as they fell
In wispy circles, through dark clouds
Flying to another part of hell.
Miss Scorpio’s Soul bleeds
As her red tears slowly streak down her dark
dress
Down like a deadly bullet surpassing time
itself, as it speeds
Through a hard granite chest
Containing the Treasures of Life,
Repelled, ricocheted, is forced down to a grim
death.
*
*
*
Miss Scorpio is still waiting for Life to start
For a fraction of joy, for a sign from above, –
As her dark Soul will never rest until it
possesses a Heart.
Copyright © JRFB 2013
Thursday, 28 February 2013
Missing
My heart is chafing, shaking with
blood
tinged by ardent desires;
My soul is crying for your touch as you briskly
Part from me -
Two Souls, two incomplete
fragments can
Never
Splice - together -
The fusion is irrepable
despite the grinding of my bones;
the melting of my heart -
(we will never weld together)
Gold and grey are clashing titans;
The Sea and Sky are forever apart.
Looking down, my glisting brown eyes
feel your light, feel your life
Beaming, teasing, being
in My world of shaded hearts:
but I will never reach you.
The plunge is deep -

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blood
tinged by ardent desires;
My soul is crying for your touch as you briskly
Part from me -
Two Souls, two incomplete
fragments can
Never
Splice - together -
The fusion is irrepable
despite the grinding of my bones;
the melting of my heart -
(we will never weld together)
Gold and grey are clashing titans;
The Sea and Sky are forever apart.
Looking down, my glisting brown eyes
feel your light, feel your life
Beaming, teasing, being
in My world of shaded hearts:
but I will never reach you.
The plunge is deep -
Copyright © JRFB 2013
Sunday, 18 November 2012
Ariera
I find myself lying still in this lattice of thorns, the prickly tethers of what feels like worn rope press into my thick skin. I cannot feel my limbs, only the mass of my torso – I feel taller than before, as if some magical sculptor has stretched me thin, elongating my spine and flesh. The sky flickers – golden yellow fireworks! Oh, but they fail to melt back into the prior gloom, silent and comforting with its masking grimace of unknowingness. This 'Sun' shifts about tentatively, like a glowing ball on a rope swing, suspended above a jungle of apes, threateningly swiping with their great arms. The tapping of faraway footsteps pulses through me and my spiny bed. Perhaps it is some god, coming to rescue me from this dark doom? I shall call out to them – never have I felt more relieved to be in so light a presence when in this crushing black cave of disorientated souls.
My words seem to be muffled by a doughy matter smothering my mouth and airways.
Oh god, what is happening? My sad life will end prematurely after all. Yet, I can still follow my scattered thoughts, disturbed by this awful happening. Perhaps, if I endure my suffering and retain my mind, I can find a way of esca--
My thoughts, ubiquitous and brimming with fear are cut short by the instant dimming of the bright Sun above – a shadow of ill-fate steals my worst notions of terror from my screaming psyche and clasps its dark, deathly fingers (surprisingly fat and fleshy) around my soft frame. My curved chest tightens, my innards twist in the compression, but still am I unable to emit a scream of ashen agony from this inexplicable torture!
‘Ariera*! I have been looking forward to devouring your feathery flesh all day!’ booms a voice, piercing and peeling the air of silence.
Even before panic can diffuse into my veiny body, I immediately feel a sharp stinging on the crown of my head; the shadow’s claws have sunken into my case, like a farmer digging his spade into the hard ground during winter’s defiant months of chill. My head, rife with pain, throbs with heat. The stinging persists and stretches further down my body, my skin, peeling away, leaving my newly exposed flesh raw, white and burning.
I have no teeth to clench together, no eyes to squeeze shut, no hope to desperately cling to. Yet my external senses remain intact, and pulse the excruciating soreness through my nerves which glow threateningly from the sickening pain of this affliction.
Just after a thousand pinpricks stab at my mutilated exterior, inverted and bare, a foul feeling of moist ensnarement rasps through me; doughy bile in my spongy stomach arises; it pulps inside me, for it is unable to surface. Sharp knives rip into my flesh, scraping at my neck, my chest, my pelvis, until I feel a sudden lightness in the midst of this chilling disfigurement of my shredded body. My top half, now mashed into puréed carnage, has been ripped from me by the jaws of a monster!
I cannot resist, I cannot refute. All I can do is lie here, rolling away from the blood-thirsty chambers of an atrocious demon.
…and so is the fate of a banana.
* Ariera is the Latin name for the English word banana (a long, crescent shaped fruit that grows in bunches and has a soft, pulpy texture and yellow external skin when ripe) |
Copyright © JRFB 2012
What are you afraid of?
Demons and monsters? Dark secrets from the corners of your mind leaking out into deathly exposure? Judgement?
Writing is almost too sacred for me to work on regularly. I mean, I adore exhaling my thoughts and imaginations through words with infinite interpretations, I really do, but when it comes down to the actual willingness to do it, I often find myself apprehensive. I think it has something to do with the trepidation of coming out with something horrifying, in the sense that I am ashamed to have written such crap and that if read by other human eyes they are sure to reach desperately for the holy water.
I want to develop my writing skills. Unfortunately, I am prone to start with promising ideas and then give up after only a few lines of creativity, not allowing enough time for the ol’ steam train to get moving. This is probably due to laziness and lack of concentration, so I will need to find a way to stick with things, I guess.
Also, a common feature of my writing style is abstract thoughts and first person narrative, but not generally containing a plot. This is not necessarily a bad thing, as the deity Virginia Woolf disagrees with the idea that ‘to provide a plot, to provide comedy, tragedy, love interest’[1] is required to create a story, depicted exquisitely in her masterpiece Mrs Dalloway.
Indeed, I intend to use my knowledge of describing and bringing to life the emotions of the speaker (or should I say my own emotions, as I have lazily not bothered to create characters) and devise a plot in a free indirect narrative for my own satisfaction. I will just write whatever drifts in and out of my mind, reflecting this narrative style and hope for the best. I can always edit and remove the ‘fat’ of globular nonsense when I finally lose steam and force myself to come to an abrupt and exasperated finish to my story.
Wish me luck!
Jaguar
[1] V Woolf 'The Common Reader' via http://ebooks.adelaide.edu.au/w/woolf/virginia/w91c/chapter1.html#chapter1
Saturday, 27 October 2012
Skydark
The clouds painted with hints of heaven
cast deep, sinister shadows on the beating surf below, slapping at the rocks
with the aquatic wrath of a god. The soft arms of nirvana, where glinting gates
of gold peep out, allow the Sky god to offer himself as a host, and to dramatize
the celestial love from above. The ridges of the nebulae turn from blue to pink
as the Sun closes her weary eyes and drifts along to the edge of darkness,
shepherding oranges and reds into her sacred field of sleep.
As
my dark pools are torn from the fantastic realm above, I see fields of rusted
fronds fluttering in the wind. Strands of cobwebbed hair determined to distract
my vision cannot mar this delight: the
silver spray from the waves; the pink bonfire of beaming divinity; the teasing light
from across the bay. The latter entices my interests with its bitter brightness
– a sparkling jewel amongst the lurid colours of sunset. My heart urges me to edge
nearer to this furtive radiance and so my legs amble over rocks encrusted with
crackling salt crystals, and spiked grasses bleached blue by the Earth’s malice,
until the night engulfs my clouded mind and the swirls hanging above.
Chills lace my body as dribbles of icy
water seep into my sink; the light draws me closer still. I find myself at the end
of the shore.
Before me – nothing but the dark perils of
a wintry sea, behind me – the echoes of rusted tufts of deathly shrubs, melting
and fragmenting into the curling wind. Below, the hungry waves kiss my feet,
waiting for the final plunge; above, the light screams for me, bellowing my
name.
The yellow glare penetrates my shivering
bones, extracting my soul, my will. So brilliant, so intense – I must join you
at the core. My essence, slipped from my hollow shell skips from the shore onto
each swirling wave, like the gold flecks from the fountain above, dancing in
the bubbling sea.
*
Closer
and closer our hearts collide. I release a howl, you discharge a sigh. The rain
ceases; the wind croaks; our spirit surges; we are one.
Copyright © JRFB 2012
Sunday, 5 August 2012
distance
i wish you'd try to understand
although perhaps it is I who am incoherent
and You speak my own language more fluently.
i won't sleep soundly knowing that waves of trouble are rippling our glass bonds
only to shatter all dreams of perfection, cutting my heart with fate's cruel blade.
*
i'm too addicted to stop knowing You,
absence feels like death - vexing and always longing for the untouchable.
i can't watch this happen, we're even closer to the disaster -
perhaps everything is a mistake; a mistake so real, so rewarding, so worth the pain of
distance.
No, I won't let you go.
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although perhaps it is I who am incoherent
and You speak my own language more fluently.
i won't sleep soundly knowing that waves of trouble are rippling our glass bonds
only to shatter all dreams of perfection, cutting my heart with fate's cruel blade.
*
i'm too addicted to stop knowing You,
absence feels like death - vexing and always longing for the untouchable.
i can't watch this happen, we're even closer to the disaster -
perhaps everything is a mistake; a mistake so real, so rewarding, so worth the pain of
distance.
No, I won't let you go.
Copyright © JRFB 2012
Saturday, 21 July 2012
Soup: A thought on categorising Life...
Labels are supposed to create a sense of order and a sense of categorisation in order to avoid any chance of chaos arising. Yet, think about how traumatic it can be for someone who identifies themselves as a Tomato Soup, but really they have doubts about their 'soupability' and perhaps would prefer to be a Minestrone.
To summarise, my advice is this: be free, be fluid and for God's sake, be something that you feel comfortable being... Be simply yourself, and leave the labeling to cans.

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We all share similar ingredients, but each is an individual because of the secret substance within; we are all cans of different flavours.
Finding yourself consuming Asian Prawn Soup without knowing it is Asian Prawn Soup because the label has fallen off is far more exciting, daring and intriguing than having specific knowledge of the ingredients, as it leaves more scope for one to interpret it in different ways, therefore appealing to a wider range of customers.
I, for example could be less vague with this topic and pinpoint that I am of course referring to teenage fashion and how it is arguably less individual and more of an social stigma for one to say
'I'm Indie, I don't follow rules and that's why I bought this red snapback...'
- the fact that one needs to brand oneself is a labeling statement in itself. But this is not purely about trends and fashion (although it may be interpreted in this way by all means), this soup metaphor is about YOU, about individuality, about not having to complicate things by ironically trying to categorise them.
'I'm Indie, I don't follow rules and that's why I bought this red snapback...'
- the fact that one needs to brand oneself is a labeling statement in itself. But this is not purely about trends and fashion (although it may be interpreted in this way by all means), this soup metaphor is about YOU, about individuality, about not having to complicate things by ironically trying to categorise them.
As soon as you say 'I am this' or 'I am that', the walls around the statement cement together, encasing you in a make-shift prison, disallowing any departure of something which does not befit the label.
Copyright © JRFB 2012
Sunday, 10 June 2012
Free Indirect Narrative (practice..): To be revised
I am an aboriginal being. I come from quitea distance, actually. My mother brought me here in her automobile. It’s big,this city, a labyrinth of leaden streets, winding this way and that.
The elderly man, sitting opposite the brownboy noted these odd utterances, shaking his head, admiring the fluidity of thechild’s speaking (for one does not tend to speak English in The Saway);glittering rays smile over the huts, the stream trickles on, nothing bites atthe soul more than the hard antithesis between two worlds: the status struggleof the city and the tranquil serenity of the countryside. For that, Gregorycould account for.
I want to help. I can change things – stalewords. Stale, cold, undeniably false words. I know where the power lies, whatreally lies beneath the silt of the world; but they had after all brought thisupon themselves, it was their transgressions, their obstinacy which evoked thetar of the soul, the Maelstrom. Twisting and untwisting, the pale blue smoke,inhaled by the darkbeaters palpitates around the room. Mr Clark seems to beunaware and continuous looking on with admiration at the wonderfully rare,bronzed child in front of him.
Of course, of course, Gregory. His eyes,mismatching, both light brown, but the left, spiced with yellow flecks, staredahead, statuary and determined; this is the Son of the Souls, thought Mr Clark,scribbling a conclusion conveying the maturity and conscientiousness of theboy. He was glad that the youthappreciated the severity of the situation, for he was their only hope.
They stood, exchanging handshakes, theyoungster managing a smile through the air of hefty silence, tentativelyretrieved the satchel and left.
Copyright © JRFB 2012
Copyright © JRFB 2012
Tuesday, 5 June 2012
Life: an entity we can all enjoy
Life is something precious. I feel that we sometimes forget this, overlook it,or focus solely on what isn't going right. Life can be guided and misguided; shaped and re-shaped; lit up and distinguished. My Life is something which I have learnt to value very much. Although I am fortunate enough to have never experienced a mishap which would alter my way of living for the rest of my existence, it is this reason that I feel blessed to breathe the fresh breeze every day, to feel the pulse of the Earth under my toes.
Of course there are those days where all rational thinking about the sanctity of Life is lost, and I much rather would stay enclosed, stuffed between the bed and the duvet, blocking the Sun and all other sources of vitality from my clouded mind. I have appropriately called them my 'Dark Days'. They occur approximately once a fortnight, and everything seems to crumble to lonesome, fragile dust and self-pity (and loathing). I seem to forget that this moment is fleeting and I will soon return to my headquarters of optimism, golden hope and a genuine adoration for the spiritual connection between Light and Life that I feel when everything is running smoothly.
Life is exquisite, differential, purposeful; but only if you allow it to be.
Every day, having been roused from the bed of dreams where my soul is allowed to explore beyond the 'limitations' of Life, I seek to discover an intention for my waking, a reason for my rupture of sweet slumbers. I discovered this: each day is different, therefore each day there is something different to live for.
I did not have to look far, for I did not even leave the house; gazing at the burning Sun, inhaling an air of light, darkness, joy and sorrow, I realised. The slight tittering and fluttering of morning birds, ecstatically soaring around the sky, seemed to burst into lurid colours: deep greens and browns surrounded the light, bursting like works of fires, shattering into burning shards of feathery glass. There; the smell of recently mowed grass, sharp and sweet like an exotic fruit juices invaded my nostrils, overcoming any doubt of whether to turn of the light and retreat back into sweet sleep.
This beauty, this euphoria, these sensations which Life provokes within, surely make vitality Victor in this battle - a skirmish between dreams and reality day and night, light and death. Yet, on both sides, the adversaries seem to drift together, blurring any such boundaries between them. In short, there is no distinction. Life is what you want it to be; it may indeed be lived through Death, or Imagination or Midnight Hours.
Each day I try to perceive Life as something new, a Friend, a Lover, a Stranger - all are equally as satisfying a seach other. All are unique.
I adore Life and its changeability.This is the beauty of Nature, of the Soul.
Copyright © JRFB 2012
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