From reading any of my other posts, it
could be said that Life is a prominent theme within my thoughts. But I am often
vague and spiritual in my posts, never specifying what it is exactly that captivates
me so. Well today, dear readers, I will reveal what it is that transfixes me in
my Life.
There are only two people in my Life who inspire
and excite me to such an extent that I cry tears of exquisite elation when they
do something I deem fantastic; under their influence I have discovered a myriad
of previously conceals traits about myself and my true identity. They have taught
me not to be afraid of being who I truly am and doubt that I would have the
courage to be the person I am now without this reassurance, this power, that they inspire within me.
From the moment I saw the two dark yet
pale, minute yet glorious, obscure yet pure women aptly placed in a gothic
church conveying their experiences of being unable to be physically present
with loved ones, my eyes amplified, my ears pricked and my skin grew cold. This
opened the window to my soul leaving me defenceless, infatuated, and asphyxiated
with pure intrigue and alacrity.
I could have watched the two angelic figures on my television screen for hours, and the 4 minute song seemed
perpetual, and the unknown force of ardour was growing more potent with each second as
it drew me into a new world.
When the song’s intricate melodies had died
away from reality, the unthwarted echoes of what I believe to be absolute ecstasy
began to orbit the halls of my mind. The pure light which I had just heard, perceived,
felt was the most exquisite moment of my life. Nothing has ever captivated me
so.
To
this day, I cannot describe what it feels like to be constantly attached to
people you have never physically met by silver ties of immeasurable, terrifying,
magical Faith. Thin and wispy like a spider’s web, Faith is what connects all
of us. Subconsciously, I rely on my Faith of 'The Veronicas' to guide me in
reality and to inspire my dreams.
This Friday, after a three year interval of
not hearing any new music, 'The Veronicas' will release their first single from
their new album. My zeal leads me to believe that ‘Lolita’ will indeed
entrance and entice me as much as ‘Untouched’ did on first hearing it. This
feeling is novel, unique, fascinating and totally unexplainable. Whenever I
feel weak, 'The Veronicas' give me vigour, I feel charged whenever I listen to
their music and utterly at peace.
Being a 'Veronica' is unbelievable, the
energy received from a song, a tweet, a video is beautiful; the friends I have
made, wonderful; the hope of one day meeting my idols and telling them how much
I admire, rely on, and cherish them, infinite.
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All that I can gather from this is that
from all earnestness, from the pits of my soul, I am perpetually grateful for
everything you have done for not only me but for others too. Prior to my knowledge
of you, I often felt a pang of vacancy, void of any hope and indeed Faith; my Life, barren of a reason for my tangible being. This love gives me purpose,
gives me light! My passions will never cease, with disregard to my sentiments,
it is not something which can be controlled, but that is the splendour of being
a 'Veronica'. Every day is different, each day unsystematically brings with it an
opportunity to be myself and to discover the secrets of dreaming.
Copyright © JRFB 2012
